Three sons.

You know what?

I need to pop on here and have a little word.

This is coming from my heart which is still quite raw.

A mother like myself who has three sons will hear this weekly, if not daily…
‘Aww you have three boys, you NEED a girl’. Yes, I know I know, I’ve had this rant before. But it seems the point never comes across and not only to me, but to many other parents.

For me, every single time this is said, it rips another tiny hole in my heart.

You’ll get tons of people telling you ‘ignore it, its just something people say’. But maybe it shouldn’t be that way. Maybe it would be nice if people thought before saying it. I mean this in the nicest possible way, but it can really hurt.

It gives the feeling as if having three boys isn’t enough. But if you had sons, you’d know that they’re a handful 😉

But aside from that, having one flavour doesn’t mean my family isn’t complete. It doesn’t mean that we NEED a girl. I know people mean well but I hear it almost daily.

You see, the end of 2017 I fell pregnant. You can see the in depth of this on my blog Two Little Lines. 

From the moment I saw that test show positive, I planned. I planned the announcements, the photoshoot with the boys to tell everyone. I planned the khaki green icandy pram. I planned the car we would need to buy to fit our little crew in.

And then came the loss. My first loss. All those plans fell apart. It was like a bridge had been set fire to and lead to a part of our life being taken away.
The day after this loss, I photographed a beautiful little newborn. I put my feelings and hurt aside to make sure I photographed another families joy. And I don’t regret for a single second doing that.

Shortly after in 2018, we became pregnant again. The feeling of a girl washed over me again. Intense. The boys always wanted a sister, especially my eldest. To this day he still wants one. It wasn’t like we were planning on a girl, we were wanting our fourth child no matter the gender.

The plans began again, but this time we planned our rainbow baby. I still wanted that khaki pram…

As a baby photographer, one of my first thoughts AGAIN was the announcement photo. The rainbow theme, I can still remember it in my head as I type this.
Sadly one evening it happened again. Unfair. Soul destroying. Life.

So, it may make no sense to you, but in my mind, we have our girls.

I simply cannot carry them for very long. Think what you wish, I know in my heart that they were girls. Our daughters would be absolutely divine looking, with the biggest hearts. It’s just, they can’t be here.

For all of the little ones that we are lucky to have, I would be honoured to have you here for me to capture beautiful portraits of you all.

Simply contact me today so we can discuss your session.