It’s everyday that you see people walking about, smiles on their faces. Little does anyone know just how close the people they see are close to a break down.
You see I’m open to admit I’m one of those people. Today has been a testing day for instance. With the weather being so awful this morning, my good friends had to cancel our girls day out. This was through no fault of their own, it’s just one of those things.
This was one of the first parts of the day to go wrong, first being my children and the school run. They’re fabulous, don’t get me wrong but it’s also a tough morning… every morning.
From getting my three sons out of bed, to the dreaded ‘get your shoes on!’ Most of us deal with that stress every weekday morning at the least.
I decided (with the help of a school Mum friends nudge) even though my friends had to cancel, to go to Westfields to have some shopping for me. Alone time, in the midst of thousands of people. It didn’t last long, Annie (my pet name for my anxiety) decided to pop in and let me know she was there, peering over my shoulder with the help of the feeling that 100 people were staring at me. Off home I went, but not without more hiccups. Trains, 4 of them cancelled.
WHAT. A. JOY.
Alongside this, my normally helpful husband is poorly so I’ve been making sure I’ve been doing as much as possible to be sure he stays in bed when he can. The more he rests, the faster he’s better to be back on his feet!
My cleaner has had to take an indefinite time off due to personal reasons so my home is screaming out for her but instead as she isn’t available, screaming into the abyss to be taken care of.
With clients here almost every day for their sessions and viewings I try my very best to keep the home looking beautiful. Its tough.
With the above, I am also dieting, and getting fit at home plus at ‘Your Gym’ to make sure I look and feel amazing in the all important Christmas dress for the works do my friend Gemma and I arrange each year.
Anyway, while tidying my kitchen today, I sat and realised I am super close to a burn out break down. The sides were messy, the sink hated me, and the recycle build up from all the (AMAZING) orders is overwhelming
I absolutely love what I do. This job is the BEST job I’ve ever have and will do forever, however I never know my limits. Like most of the photographers I know, we work and work and work until we drop. But I can bet even when we drop, we are editing on the floor haha!
With all the above and more, it puts me on edge to an easy burn out or break down. Thankfully I take my CBD oil almost daily or I don’t know where I’d be. Also it’s good to turn to a friend. I have a certain friend that this morning noticed a comment I ‘loved’ and immediately what sapped me to check I was ok. And did so through the day, even up to this moment. She always seems to know when to check in. Thankyou Miss Frankie.
Mental health is so important and we must take more care of ourselves. Self care is KEY. We just forget about it alot of the time. Because when we are doing self care, we aren’t doing the things we have planned, or the work we need to do.
I suppose this is a kick up the bottom for self too, to slow down for a moment.
Its ok not to be ok, it’s ok to sit and have a cry on the stairs while your children run riot even after you’ve kissed them goodnight and tucked them in.
In fact, that’s exactly what I just did. I’ll tell you what, it helps. Its fine to have a break down now and again, cars do it, so why can’t we 😉 Just make sure you get right back up.
Pssst, writing this has completely helped clear my head. Thankyou if you got this far!
Ever felt like you need a bit of R&R? Me too. So when these beautiful twin newborn sisters arrived, I knew it was going to be a great day. Little did I know, just how great.
Just a heads up, R and R are the first initials of these little ladies names, and they were as awesome as they are beautiful.
Understandably nervous, their parents felt some anxiety when they arrived. Like some, this is the first time they have met me, and been to the studio.
We begin the session and with all twin newborn photoshoots, I call in my wonderful assistant. My assistant is there to spot one baby whilst I spot the other.
The girls were perfect. They loved to be with each other which was so beautiful to see.
During their twin newborn session, I created some beautiful portraits that left Mum and Dad so happy when they came to view. One of the images that really caught their eye was this family portrait.
I vividly remember Dad getting up to take a closer look. His reaction was so memorable, pure emotion.
He said how powerful the image is, the strength of love and family. He said it all with such meaning and I honestly got goosebumps. I love when people react like that to portraits created here. It is such an honour.
Alongside these images and many more, came this next portrait.
There are moments you have to absolutely grab in newborn sessions. This was one of them.
While one sister took some time for a nap, the other made a connection with my camera.
I knew at that moment that this portrait was special. A twin newborn portrait I’ll always remember.
I entered this into one of the most prestigious photographic competitions in the world..
It was my first time entering and I never expected to get anywhere. The competition is fierce!
It was announcement time and I was that sure I wouldn’t place anywhere that I didn’t even check.
I soon received a message of extreme excitement was a good friend of mine, Paulina.
Confused at the crazy she was speaking, I congratulated her on her 1st place win! She won 1st place in Childrens Portrait category. Incredible! Another win!
She kept telling me ‘no no, YOU WON THIRD PLACE’.
Me? 3rd place, world wide? Surely not?! She sent the link and To my surprise I had indeed won third place in the WPPI Newborn Portrait Category! I am still so amazed, immensely amazed.
I want to thank this wonderful family for attending this newborn session and allowing me to win another Trophy (yet to arrive) for my studio alongside my Newborn Photographer of the Year 2019!
First- Second- and Third-Place winners will be featured in an online gallery on wppiawards.com